Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Savannah ~ February 9, 2003 - July 23, 2012


I haven't been able to write about my sweet Savannah.  She passed away July 23, 2012.  I should say that we had to face a difficult challenge for us -- and that was to let her go.  

After a year of health issues and another surgery, we discovered that our little girl was suffering from a fast spreading cancer.  It was in her liver.  

Savannah was such a sweet Basenji.  She never gave us much trouble growing up.  Yes, she chewed a few things here and there, but really not that much.  She was smart and tough.  I still remember her leading out in front on our walks.  Moving quick and confidently.

She was our big love and my husband's little girl.  Oh how she wrapped up his heart in her paw.  He would smother her with kisses and she never mind them at all.  She knew love; warmth; shelter and safety.  

We had a tough year with her illnesses.  But still we did whatever we could to make her life comfortable.  We even bought her a pretty pink stroller when she was having difficulty walking.  My husband pushed that stroller with all his pride and love.  


These are a few photos when she was sick.  You could see the tiredness in her eyes.  
The Afternoon I rushed her to the vet, I kept thinking that she would be alright.  We knew at that time she had Cancer, but I kept thinking that as soon as she healed from her surgery, we would start looking at our options.  But when her doctor came in to speak to me, he said, "She's one sick little girl" and that's when my heart began to crack.  
On July 23, 2012, my husband and I made the decision to send her on a journey alone.  We couldn't let her stay in pain and our challenge was to make the decision to let her go.  The doctors left us in the room with her and told us to take our time with her; but you know there is never really ever enough time.  How could I give them an answer about how much time I needed.  I needed more time to be with her; to sleep with her; to cuddle her and kiss her.  But there's never ever enough time.  I was so afraid for her.  She looked into our eyes as if she was telling us to just take her away from there and take her home.  But we couldn't.  We had to send her on her way and believe that one day we will be with her.  
The word "pet" doesn't even begin to explain what they mean to us. They are our love; our joy; our laughs and our smiles. They embed themselves in our hearts and know the meaning of "Stay" because that is what they indeed do. They Stay. They stay in our hearts; in our smiles and in our tears. They STAY forever loved and they STAY in our memories. Constant and strong.

We go on -- through heart
break and through tears.

What is so remarkable and I see it all the times is that eventually our hearts do have the ability to open up again to give our love again to another and another and another.

That is the beauty of a human who has a heart. There is always much much more love to give. 
I have so many photos of Savannah and it's hard to choose which one I love the best.  However, this one is one of my all time favorite photos of Savannah.   She looks like she's laughing and just enjoying the beautiful day.  This is what she made my heart feel like....Immense Joy.
I love you Baby Girl.  Always and Forever.

Songs That I Don't Mind When They Get Stuck Inside My Head

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